In the dark and I am the guru

this blog will be all lowercase. this might drive my friend sarah nuts - she edits my blogs to make sure they are typo free - ha!

so i am sitting in the dark right now - i just meditated for five minutes - i did one recommended by sarah (talented meditation teacher and practitioner) called shamata. basically you focus on one point. and keep bringing yourself back to this focus. i keep getting these messages from the universe about meditating - from sarah, people showing up who are into this stuff. so i will try it for one month from this day.

during the meditation i heard lots of noises, was distracted many times by thoughts of money, my family, a boy i liked who i haven't heard from, wondered when the meditation would end. but i did feel a sense of peace being with myself.

i am not going to overthink this. i am just going to write what comes up for me. i don't know if i want to write about it all here - i will decide as i go.

that's it for now. except for this thought - what i am experiencing is this and this didn't come from the meditation - we've got teachers and mentors we learn from - but we are each our own guru - i finally get this and embrace it.

do you meditate? tell me more.