PMS, Perimenopausal rage and honoring thyself

I have raging PMS and am on deadline but I had to break for a moment to write this week's installment - in part because I have PMS and have no ability to focus.

Today I went to my doctor to get relief to this problem and her first response was to put me on the birth control pill. Here's what I did with this ignorant approach to 'helping' women deal with issues of pre-menopause - which is what I am really going through.

I took my anger over her inability to properly answer my questions and I wrote an e-mail to people I know in the health care industry - people who run hospitals. I told them about this issue - of doctors not communicating well with patients and of the lack of clear information regarding how are bodies change as we approach menopause - and then I offered solutions - I know they will be heard and taken seriously and lead to change. I am telling you this because here's the thing - when shit happens to us we can either let it consume us and be the victim or we can grab that pain by the horns and use it to help not only us but other people. I am not telling you this to toot my own horn by mainly to say - we have a greater responsibility here than us - our job in my opinion - is to use what we go through as a learning point to help not just us but everybody else. Obama touched upon this today in his speech. And someone on Oprah said 'be responsible for the energy you put out into the universe.' I love that and I believe it. So I took the frustration of not knowing how to deal YET with this hormonal issue of mine that keeps heightening and as I find the answers, I will share it in my comedy to communicate what I learn in productive way. And I will work behind the scenes communicating with decisionmakers to help shift the health care system in even the smallest way to make it better for all of us.

I don't always do this perfectly in all areas of my life - I am a work in progress. But I can tell you this - I do take full responsibility for the being the cause of everything in my life instead of being a victim. And there is something very empowering about that vantage point.

Here's one more note - it's from Shakespeare - and I love it and I live by this because it is so true: "This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man." My take on this is - if you are true to yourself then the universe works with you to succeed aka honor yourself and all of your energy will be aligned to empower you. I learned a lot about this last year when I made a few choices in boy department that were not aligned with me. Once I realigned - everything came together nicely. I needed to remind myself of this right now so I am just sharing with you.

One thing I really notice about this 'time of the month' and as I re-read this entry before sending - my emotions are very heightened - in a beautiful way in some respects - because they heighten my love for myself and what I stand for and really make me speak my truth right in the moment - LOVE THAT SO MUCH (and watch out whoever I come into contact with in next couple days - YEOW). And that is a really cool way to try and look at this PMS/perimenopause/hormone thing.

So this rambling might be scattered and my brain a little too, my alignment with myself is extremely focused. Love it!

Now back to my deadline - OMG